Have you ever listened to House of the rising Sun?
That's some great music right there I'm telling ya.

So I'm trying to think of what to describe and it seem's I find nothing, I forgot why I wanted to write. It was a rather average day and there wasn't really anything worth reporting. Maybe that's it, purhaps I am getting dull.

I had court yesterday, but thats not really big news, if you knew me you probably heard me say that before. I thought I put those days behind me but purhaps I'm still, a delinquint after all.

Lets move on.

The girl. I have once again tried, and it seems I have the same habit each time. I don't let her get close, I cut it, half way to starting something. Why, the truth, the mere knowledge of knowing what I am. I have no fortune and I have no car, I'm not in school I'm at work, or the bar. As of now, I can't offer much, not what she deserves.

Do you see this foolish pride of mine.
As much as you may think its material...it probably is, but this girl, I just want to kinda take care of this girl. I want to take her out to a beach, spur of the moment, just get up and go. I can't offer this to her, all these great things I wish I could do for her yet I am hopeless at getting them at this point in life, not till after my schooling.

So for now I do what I've been doing, just let them go. I really wish, really really wish, it didn't have to be this one though.

That's all.